Reality setting in

He came home from his Chicago trip this weekend. We had brunch on Sunday. It was nice. Slightly awkward. Pleasant kiss. Was it a good idea? I don't know. I know that it's hard to walk away from 2+ years of loving someone. Regardless of what was done. I know that it's hard for me to shut off my feelings for him. After giving so much and trying so hard, I just wanted to see how it would go. He still felt far away. Not in the same way that he had been. I felt the guilt he was feeling. I felt it pouring off him. Forced conversation. But oh how I wanted it to be different. Except it ended in fighting. I'm still angry. He still wants to just walk past everything. And there are always reasons that people become an Ex.